Gettin My Nail Polish On...!

I am starting to think that I could seriously write a book about all of the family drama in my life. One of my family members in particular would be great to write about, and of course I would have to change the names but I could see it working. I am so glad to just get away from some of the people who are stressing and emotionally draining me. I have hated being out of my comfort zone and the last time that I was in my own space was the weekend before the surgery. It has been 15 days since I have been home and slept in my bed, and as much as I love my family I am so fucking happy to be home. 15 days might not seem like a long time but it is for me! I usually don't spend that much time at home, I am working, out with friends, visiting family oh and did I mention working!!! Tonight I am sitting on the couch across from Alison and Kellyn and I could not be happier, it is so nice to just feel home. After next week I will start work again and I am ready to go back in some ways and in other ways I am not.
When I first got home today I just felt like I didn't belong and it took me a few hours to feeling like I was home. Staying up late is not the best thing for me, especially since I need to be up early in the morning to have one of my last blood tests for a while. I am ready to get the rest of this week over and I am so thankful that I have been feeling very well.

Early Morning News Session.

I have been waking up to a countdown in my head and updating it on our chalkboard fridge. Now it's only 7 days until things will change for a while and life will start to get better. I started to think would I really have been able to deal with this 2 or 3 years ago?
It has been 2 years since mom has been cancer free, and if anyone has learned anything from that horrible experience I believe that I have. It has made our family closer and I have become so much more closer to my mom than I ever thought I could become. Besides that I feel like I am a stronger person who can deal with a little more stress and deal with life situations that I never thought would occur. Not only did my diagnosis of diabetes help me find he real source of all of my health problems,

If the years were different

I am completely beyond being unhappy with the situation with my mother, and we ended up fighting on the phone tonight while I was at work. We do not get along on a regular basis and I have spent so much time trying to distance myself from her, mainly because she hurts me all of the time. I found out my surgery date about a week or two ago and I wanted to be able to see my family and I called her and let her know what was going on. I have told her what was going on with the tumor that is in my brain since October. She didn't really listen to me and she ended up calling me overweight a couple of times when I first told her what was going on with me.

Couldn't be more high that I am right now (natural one that is!)

Since last Thursday (surgery date was set) my mind has been going 20 millionn miles a minute. I feel totally turned on all of the time, and not in a bad way. I have so much that I have to get done, but I am not feeling too overwhelmed...YET! Work is just plugging along and I am really trying hard to get all of my ducks in a row! This is a really big step